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I had a mercifully good nights sleep and I feel so, so much better for it. That was without taking meds and through the wildest part of the hurricane storm. I think thinking about the ark was what did it, despite the howling wind and thrashing rain against the windows, I knew I was safe cosied up with you in my head.
I had cigarettes to wake up to this morning thanks to you reminding my Mum and I have enjoyed a slow morning. Had a nice long shower and I've decided not to do much today besides playing iPad games, watching Netflix and maybe doing some drawing or something with crayons later. Hoping to go to Michaels tomorrow to get some crafting goodies, both to do here and bring home. Today is most certainly a hibernation day. I am glad to know you have a similar theme in mind after you rescued that little hedgehog to make him safe for the winter.
I seem to feel permanently hungry at the moment, whilst this makes me very uneasy I am trying to go with the flow. I know my body needs more reserves for the winter and being so cold permanently for days on end, to the point where I am in pain, I am trying to be a little kinder to myself. I need to be strong to look after you when you come home and get myself through this winter mostly on my own. Need to store up to last through the cold months, ready for our rebirth in the spring, new life, new starts.
PM
I seemed to find myself dozing early this afternoon despite all the sleep I had last night. Feeling quite soporific.
We went out to Michael's today in the end - you would have been proud of me buying only things that are on sale. I'm not going to go into what I got too much as some things are a surprise for your birthday- I really hope you like them. Also went into Walmart today and Dollarama. I purchased a few bits and pieces to bring home. Now that the states trip is off I am allowing myself to spend a little bit of money. I played with my crayons a little bit (like a good little Mousey) when I came back - sat amongst all my purchases spread out on the floor - like I do at home when we have been on a Hobby Craft run. I got a little keep sake for you, myself and Anna and I want to make little boxes to gift them to you in. It's the same thing essentially but all slightly different. I may work on things to go with them over the next few days though I need a few things from our craft stash at home to finish them.
This was the picture I drew for you - I hope you are very proud *chuckles*:
It's you as a Sausage :D
Mum and I went quite loopy eating sweeties later this afternoon. Generally causing mayhem and terrifying the cat. Was a giggle anyway. We watched Burlesque on Netflix (even though we'd both seen it) and generally just had a bit of fun. It felt good to laugh and feel quite carefree for an afternoon.
Made an evening trip out to Zehrs (grocery store). We were initially going to get more sweeties but thought better of that as we both felt rather sick. Just got some sensible things for the next few days. I paid a visit to the lobsters in the tank in the fish section and spent a while talking to them like a mad person. They made me feel sad seeing them all squashed in there with their claws taped up ... knowing they will be that way until someone buys them to take home and cook alive. I think I might stop eating fish after that experience. I wanted to buy one and let him live in the bath but I don't think Bonbon would've like that and I'm not sure a pet lobster would be allowed as hand luggage on the flight home... but maybe I can get a pet lobster when I am back? *puppy eyes*.
The drive back calmed me down a lot and I feel quite a bit more mellow this evening. The darkness slows me down and now the wind of the storm has dropped, the world feels calmer too. The long nights are drawing in and I'm preparing myself for when I come back to England. I am sorry I haven't had chance to chat to you on any form of instant messager today but you're always in my heart and most of my trips out and purchases were done for you or with you in mind. I know we messaged back and forth as always but I felt a little bit distanced from you as I got about my day and for that I am very sorry. Talked about you a lot though with my Mum today and she was helping me look for things to bring back for you that we thought you may have liked.
This is day 14 bbg - two whole weeks we have survived now.
I'm still missing you just as much, if not more than day one.
Mousey x
I had a mercifully good nights sleep and I feel so, so much better for it. That was without taking meds and through the wildest part of the hurricane storm. I think thinking about the ark was what did it, despite the howling wind and thrashing rain against the windows, I knew I was safe cosied up with you in my head.
I had cigarettes to wake up to this morning thanks to you reminding my Mum and I have enjoyed a slow morning. Had a nice long shower and I've decided not to do much today besides playing iPad games, watching Netflix and maybe doing some drawing or something with crayons later. Hoping to go to Michaels tomorrow to get some crafting goodies, both to do here and bring home. Today is most certainly a hibernation day. I am glad to know you have a similar theme in mind after you rescued that little hedgehog to make him safe for the winter.
I seem to feel permanently hungry at the moment, whilst this makes me very uneasy I am trying to go with the flow. I know my body needs more reserves for the winter and being so cold permanently for days on end, to the point where I am in pain, I am trying to be a little kinder to myself. I need to be strong to look after you when you come home and get myself through this winter mostly on my own. Need to store up to last through the cold months, ready for our rebirth in the spring, new life, new starts.
PM
I seemed to find myself dozing early this afternoon despite all the sleep I had last night. Feeling quite soporific.
We went out to Michael's today in the end - you would have been proud of me buying only things that are on sale. I'm not going to go into what I got too much as some things are a surprise for your birthday- I really hope you like them. Also went into Walmart today and Dollarama. I purchased a few bits and pieces to bring home. Now that the states trip is off I am allowing myself to spend a little bit of money. I played with my crayons a little bit (like a good little Mousey) when I came back - sat amongst all my purchases spread out on the floor - like I do at home when we have been on a Hobby Craft run. I got a little keep sake for you, myself and Anna and I want to make little boxes to gift them to you in. It's the same thing essentially but all slightly different. I may work on things to go with them over the next few days though I need a few things from our craft stash at home to finish them.
This was the picture I drew for you - I hope you are very proud *chuckles*:
It's you as a Sausage :D
Mum and I went quite loopy eating sweeties later this afternoon. Generally causing mayhem and terrifying the cat. Was a giggle anyway. We watched Burlesque on Netflix (even though we'd both seen it) and generally just had a bit of fun. It felt good to laugh and feel quite carefree for an afternoon.
Made an evening trip out to Zehrs (grocery store). We were initially going to get more sweeties but thought better of that as we both felt rather sick. Just got some sensible things for the next few days. I paid a visit to the lobsters in the tank in the fish section and spent a while talking to them like a mad person. They made me feel sad seeing them all squashed in there with their claws taped up ... knowing they will be that way until someone buys them to take home and cook alive. I think I might stop eating fish after that experience. I wanted to buy one and let him live in the bath but I don't think Bonbon would've like that and I'm not sure a pet lobster would be allowed as hand luggage on the flight home... but maybe I can get a pet lobster when I am back? *puppy eyes*.
The drive back calmed me down a lot and I feel quite a bit more mellow this evening. The darkness slows me down and now the wind of the storm has dropped, the world feels calmer too. The long nights are drawing in and I'm preparing myself for when I come back to England. I am sorry I haven't had chance to chat to you on any form of instant messager today but you're always in my heart and most of my trips out and purchases were done for you or with you in mind. I know we messaged back and forth as always but I felt a little bit distanced from you as I got about my day and for that I am very sorry. Talked about you a lot though with my Mum today and she was helping me look for things to bring back for you that we thought you may have liked.
This is day 14 bbg - two whole weeks we have survived now.
I'm still missing you just as much, if not more than day one.
Mousey x
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