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I can't believe it'll only have been a week tomorrow that you've been gone - it feels like forever.
Another early start for me this morning but it was lovely wake up to a message from you in my inbox that seemed positive and with knowledge of leave. It's amazing that you'll get afternoons out on weekends as early as this - we can plan to do lots of nice things in those time slots.
It's raining heavily here this morning, it's unusual for it to be continual - usually short heavy bursts, but then I guess I haven't really been in Canada at this time of year before. Suits me really as I'm feeling a little slowed down today (be the meds again no doubt - not quite sure what I'm going to do when I come off those). After Mum left for work I drank my tea in bed as you said it was a blissful experience for you and so I shared in that with you - albeit several hours and several thousand miles later. One of my favourite things in the whole world is cuddling in bed with you listening to the rain - is there really anything cosier?
Mum and I went out for dinner last night to a vegetarian restaurant (a rare novelty over here). It was called the Zen Garden and it was like a little haven inside. Very tranquil, more like a spa than a restaurant. She served us the house tea which was oolong with lavender infused in it - was very calming. The experience was exactly what I needed really after feeling so all over the place earlier yesterday. You would've loved it in there - when you come over I will take you there as there were so many vegan options. Drinking the tea made me think of the Mystery Tea House - I would like to go there with you when I'm back please? I've become a real tea junkie lately - bit by bit it's creeping in, it's because the weather is getting colder. This morning I had Orange Blossom - which I know will not appeal to you at all but I loved it and I'm gradually working my way through a box of green tea with pomegranate. I may bring you some nice teas back from a place called Teavana.
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I feel like I am in a cocoon in the house today - it's a little womb and I feel safe inside. I'm quite glad in some ways that it is raining and I don't feel like I "should" be outside. I need to remember that this is supposed to be a time of rebuilding for me too.
I spent much of the morning reading on the bed - it's a rainy day and it looks as though that is how it is going to remain. I think I will stay indoors and make the most of not doing much. Reading is a good way to pass the time and rest without over thinking. I have finished my book from the airport now but I think I may have to go out and buy some others ... think I'll get me a library card when I come back to England and I think I'd like to pick some books out to bring for you to read too. I used to enjoy our trips around the library in Tottenham- picking out our reads for the tube, it's randomly one of my fondest memories of being in London.
I guess there are many ways you could pass your time, but few compare to the escapism of reading a good book. Get lost in someone else's life and be free from your own for a while. My Granny ("our Bex") used to say to me as a child; "you'll never be lonely so long as you have a good novel", and I guess there is some truth in that. I like the way my world seemed to stop for a while whilst I submerged myself in the story. Concentration is something I struggle with - as you know - especially whilst experiencing so much anxiety, but like with anything it's worth giving it a go. If you can't do it you can always put a book down - it's not going to judge you is it? It's about finding a book that does grab your interest I think, and easily - I couldn't read just anything.
I haven't been feeling too well this evening - but I enjoyed going out to the shops with my Mum - got you a little present. It isn't new, got it in a charity shop but I think you'll like it - I saw it and thought of you. Nothing spectacular but it was one of those saw it and thought of you moments. We also went to Bulk Barn - which is just awesome - every baking thing imaginable. We'd have a field day when we're back in our baking hey day - and to Dollarama which is the Canadian version of the Pound shop - but it was more epic. You'd have loved the cheap shop excursion!
Day 7 done - a whole week survived Sausage.
It's not getting any easier admittedly - but I doubt it ever will, if it got easier that'd mean I'd miss you less and that's impossible.
Love Mousey x
I can't believe it'll only have been a week tomorrow that you've been gone - it feels like forever.
Another early start for me this morning but it was lovely wake up to a message from you in my inbox that seemed positive and with knowledge of leave. It's amazing that you'll get afternoons out on weekends as early as this - we can plan to do lots of nice things in those time slots.
It's raining heavily here this morning, it's unusual for it to be continual - usually short heavy bursts, but then I guess I haven't really been in Canada at this time of year before. Suits me really as I'm feeling a little slowed down today (be the meds again no doubt - not quite sure what I'm going to do when I come off those). After Mum left for work I drank my tea in bed as you said it was a blissful experience for you and so I shared in that with you - albeit several hours and several thousand miles later. One of my favourite things in the whole world is cuddling in bed with you listening to the rain - is there really anything cosier?
Mum and I went out for dinner last night to a vegetarian restaurant (a rare novelty over here). It was called the Zen Garden and it was like a little haven inside. Very tranquil, more like a spa than a restaurant. She served us the house tea which was oolong with lavender infused in it - was very calming. The experience was exactly what I needed really after feeling so all over the place earlier yesterday. You would've loved it in there - when you come over I will take you there as there were so many vegan options. Drinking the tea made me think of the Mystery Tea House - I would like to go there with you when I'm back please? I've become a real tea junkie lately - bit by bit it's creeping in, it's because the weather is getting colder. This morning I had Orange Blossom - which I know will not appeal to you at all but I loved it and I'm gradually working my way through a box of green tea with pomegranate. I may bring you some nice teas back from a place called Teavana.
PM
I feel like I am in a cocoon in the house today - it's a little womb and I feel safe inside. I'm quite glad in some ways that it is raining and I don't feel like I "should" be outside. I need to remember that this is supposed to be a time of rebuilding for me too.
I spent much of the morning reading on the bed - it's a rainy day and it looks as though that is how it is going to remain. I think I will stay indoors and make the most of not doing much. Reading is a good way to pass the time and rest without over thinking. I have finished my book from the airport now but I think I may have to go out and buy some others ... think I'll get me a library card when I come back to England and I think I'd like to pick some books out to bring for you to read too. I used to enjoy our trips around the library in Tottenham- picking out our reads for the tube, it's randomly one of my fondest memories of being in London.
I guess there are many ways you could pass your time, but few compare to the escapism of reading a good book. Get lost in someone else's life and be free from your own for a while. My Granny ("our Bex") used to say to me as a child; "you'll never be lonely so long as you have a good novel", and I guess there is some truth in that. I like the way my world seemed to stop for a while whilst I submerged myself in the story. Concentration is something I struggle with - as you know - especially whilst experiencing so much anxiety, but like with anything it's worth giving it a go. If you can't do it you can always put a book down - it's not going to judge you is it? It's about finding a book that does grab your interest I think, and easily - I couldn't read just anything.
I haven't been feeling too well this evening - but I enjoyed going out to the shops with my Mum - got you a little present. It isn't new, got it in a charity shop but I think you'll like it - I saw it and thought of you. Nothing spectacular but it was one of those saw it and thought of you moments. We also went to Bulk Barn - which is just awesome - every baking thing imaginable. We'd have a field day when we're back in our baking hey day - and to Dollarama which is the Canadian version of the Pound shop - but it was more epic. You'd have loved the cheap shop excursion!
Day 7 done - a whole week survived Sausage.
It's not getting any easier admittedly - but I doubt it ever will, if it got easier that'd mean I'd miss you less and that's impossible.
Love Mousey x
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