AM - 2:16 am to be precise. I cannot sleep, I need spooning and the more I think about needing spooning the more I can't sleep. Catch 22. I tried so hard to get to the place we had agreed to meet in our dreams. I had my outfit on, my wings ready, but I didn't seen to be able to take flight. I hope you're not lonely up there without me - just happy and carefree. I think I need to put on my flying shoes...
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I watched many hours go by last night - especially as I went to bed at 9pm along with you. I got to sleep eventually thanks to our dear friend Zopiclone. I had a lie in today - I think maybe I finally shifted on to Canadian time - typical on my last full day!
Went up into the attic room to have a cigarette this morning and Mum was shifting stuff around - she found a bag of stuff I had left from several trips ago - including big winter jumpers - this thrilled me as they can come home as extra winter clothes for me. There is one jumper in particular that I think you will love to borrow too. I had wondered where it had got to!
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Been out shopping again today. Went to a place called Cambridge Surplus - it was like a giant B&M. Heaven. I got quite a few bits in there - especially after my wonderful bank account surprise this morning. The landing of that money has been a massive relief. I have been so worried about not being able to make your birthday nice. It was worrying about that actually that kept me up most of the night. I just want my special girl to have the most special of days. I know you're saying you just want me - but you have me anyway. I'd give you the earth if I could, I wish I could but I am glad I may be able to get a few token things to make the day more memorable.
I got some stickers and bits for crafting when we are home - I think I'd like to come up and visit and do some crafty things with you in the unit when I'm back - just as we would've done at home. I also went to my beloved bead shop today - got some charms and things to play with when I'm back. I had to leave there pretty quick though as I started to feel quite unwell. Then we drove up to Zehrs to get some more things to drink and I realised I'd left my bag of charms in the bead shop *face palm*. Luckily it was still there when we got back.
Later this afternoon I enjoyed sitting on the stool in the kitchen watching my Mum cook chilli and we lit all the candles and things around the house - made it all cosy and lovely. Today seemed to slip by really quickly despite how long the night was. I feel sad to be leaving my Mum and I know today has been difficult for her. I wish I could be in two places at once sometimes - but I know she is going to be fine when I leave. You however need me back. I am so proud of your achievements today too - it warmed my heart right through. My fighter.
I loved seeing your picture of your canal walk today. I have missed my walks since being here - but it has been too cold for me. I hope I managed to do the odd one when I'm back and then I will still have things to tell you about and share the pictures. You know how much I love canals - gets me ideas for my story too. Apparently it's national novel writing month this month... perhaps I could make a start on that... I hope we can go and walk down the canal near you together when we're reunited.
I'm continuing to be in the fuzzy state of mind and so it is still difficult to write much to you. Also because I have been plotting for my return I can't share too much ;) . I am feeling quite unwell again this evening too so I think an early night is on the cards.
My last sleep in Canada tonight baby... on day 18. Only hours until a snuggle now.
Mousey x
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I watched many hours go by last night - especially as I went to bed at 9pm along with you. I got to sleep eventually thanks to our dear friend Zopiclone. I had a lie in today - I think maybe I finally shifted on to Canadian time - typical on my last full day!
Went up into the attic room to have a cigarette this morning and Mum was shifting stuff around - she found a bag of stuff I had left from several trips ago - including big winter jumpers - this thrilled me as they can come home as extra winter clothes for me. There is one jumper in particular that I think you will love to borrow too. I had wondered where it had got to!
PM
Been out shopping again today. Went to a place called Cambridge Surplus - it was like a giant B&M. Heaven. I got quite a few bits in there - especially after my wonderful bank account surprise this morning. The landing of that money has been a massive relief. I have been so worried about not being able to make your birthday nice. It was worrying about that actually that kept me up most of the night. I just want my special girl to have the most special of days. I know you're saying you just want me - but you have me anyway. I'd give you the earth if I could, I wish I could but I am glad I may be able to get a few token things to make the day more memorable.
I got some stickers and bits for crafting when we are home - I think I'd like to come up and visit and do some crafty things with you in the unit when I'm back - just as we would've done at home. I also went to my beloved bead shop today - got some charms and things to play with when I'm back. I had to leave there pretty quick though as I started to feel quite unwell. Then we drove up to Zehrs to get some more things to drink and I realised I'd left my bag of charms in the bead shop *face palm*. Luckily it was still there when we got back.
Later this afternoon I enjoyed sitting on the stool in the kitchen watching my Mum cook chilli and we lit all the candles and things around the house - made it all cosy and lovely. Today seemed to slip by really quickly despite how long the night was. I feel sad to be leaving my Mum and I know today has been difficult for her. I wish I could be in two places at once sometimes - but I know she is going to be fine when I leave. You however need me back. I am so proud of your achievements today too - it warmed my heart right through. My fighter.
I loved seeing your picture of your canal walk today. I have missed my walks since being here - but it has been too cold for me. I hope I managed to do the odd one when I'm back and then I will still have things to tell you about and share the pictures. You know how much I love canals - gets me ideas for my story too. Apparently it's national novel writing month this month... perhaps I could make a start on that... I hope we can go and walk down the canal near you together when we're reunited.
I'm continuing to be in the fuzzy state of mind and so it is still difficult to write much to you. Also because I have been plotting for my return I can't share too much ;) . I am feeling quite unwell again this evening too so I think an early night is on the cards.
My last sleep in Canada tonight baby... on day 18. Only hours until a snuggle now.
Mousey x
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