Afternoon
I apologise for the gap in the daily blogs but that is because you have been with me :D so I haven't really needed to write to you about my days and I have been able to physically give you words of love.
I am finding it difficult to write still so you will have to bare with me - suffering with a lot of brain cloudiness and holding my attention to anything. I'm sitting feeling upset and frustrated that I can't even do a simple thing like write to you.
Had the photoshoot this morning - thank you for waking me up as I had majorly overslept - I didn't arrive too late and I was ready to go at least. The photographer was lovely - shot me in a wedding dress and one vintage outfit in and around Astley Hall in Chorley. Not somewhere I would choose as our wedding venue to be honest but the park setting was beautiful. We mostly shot outside. I couldn't last the day through - I was far too cold and overwhelmed by everything going on. I needed to leave and just get away from everything.
I hope that there is one nice photograph of me in a wedding dress - so we can pin it on our walls as symbolism of our dream. The dress was one of the photographers - it didn't fit so we clamped it but it was pretty - simple and had a bit of a vintagey feel to it. Not over the top enough for me ;) . Been thinking a lot more about the wedding since we visited Williamson Park. You're going to make such a beautiful bride - my heart skips a beat when I think about it.
Lindsey was at home when I arrived. Granny is still unwell - just waiting for the doctor to come. She's very likely to be going into a home baby. I'm so upset about it. It breaks my heart and I will miss her.
Evening
I seem to just be sitting and staring at the walls. The hours are so slow. This is what I was dreading to be honest. After today though I should mostly be kept busy with treatment and visits and choir practise on Saturdays. I've put the television on now that it has gone dark to keep me company.
Granny apparently has a bladder infection - she's not going into hospital. We're just going to take it day by day for now and I'll have to become more of a full time carer around Lindsey's vists to assist the carers while she is bed bound. We are going to see as/ if she feels better whether or not she can get out of bed again. If not it's then we'll have to reassess her care and think about her maybe going into a home.
I am just waiting for time to pass now until X Factor is on and the night carer has been and Granny is safely asleep. Hardcore Saturday night for me. I hope you had a nice afternoon with your family - the birthday cake they made you looked epic :) .
The past three days with you had been amazing. Your birthday was "Day 23" you know. I was going to post it on the day "23 Subtle Things I Love About You" - but I was busy snuggling and just being with you. So here they are now:
1.The scent of you - particularly on your forehead and neck.
2. The way your nose wiggles when you talk.
3. Your ability to recall where anything is when I "lose" it.
4. Your "cheeky face".
5. Your erratic handwriting and how it changes style mid sentence.
6. How you always wear accessories with every outfit.
7. The tiny birth mark on your lip - it's an "X marks the spot".
8. When you make up or mix up words.
9. The way you make my hot chocolate just right.
10. How you "recharge" things for me to snuggle when we're apart.
11. How you always find things on the floor - 20ps in particular
12. That you have bath that is so hot that you come out bright pink.
13. Your puzzle addiction and the way you sit in your chair while you do them.
14. Amy Quiche moments.
15. When you drive you lazily place your hand on the bottom of the steering wheel.
16. How you will watch Glee even though you hate it because you know I love it.
17. Your dance moves! *shoulder shuffle*
18. When you drink something from a bottle after me - you don't wipe the lipstick ring off your face.
19. When we spoon to sleep and you wrap your leg over the top of mine.
20. Your relentless list writing.
21. How you will not spend money on yourself but nothing is ever too expensive for me.
22. Those bloody blue shoes!
23. The magical places you think up when it's your turn to decide where we're going to meet in our dreams.
These are just the little things - the main list is endless and I'll be forever writing this, the same way I am forever clocking up all the reasons I love you so much in my heart. It grows constantly, just like my love for you.
25 whole days survived baby girl.
Mousey x
I apologise for the gap in the daily blogs but that is because you have been with me :D so I haven't really needed to write to you about my days and I have been able to physically give you words of love.
I am finding it difficult to write still so you will have to bare with me - suffering with a lot of brain cloudiness and holding my attention to anything. I'm sitting feeling upset and frustrated that I can't even do a simple thing like write to you.
Had the photoshoot this morning - thank you for waking me up as I had majorly overslept - I didn't arrive too late and I was ready to go at least. The photographer was lovely - shot me in a wedding dress and one vintage outfit in and around Astley Hall in Chorley. Not somewhere I would choose as our wedding venue to be honest but the park setting was beautiful. We mostly shot outside. I couldn't last the day through - I was far too cold and overwhelmed by everything going on. I needed to leave and just get away from everything.
I hope that there is one nice photograph of me in a wedding dress - so we can pin it on our walls as symbolism of our dream. The dress was one of the photographers - it didn't fit so we clamped it but it was pretty - simple and had a bit of a vintagey feel to it. Not over the top enough for me ;) . Been thinking a lot more about the wedding since we visited Williamson Park. You're going to make such a beautiful bride - my heart skips a beat when I think about it.
Lindsey was at home when I arrived. Granny is still unwell - just waiting for the doctor to come. She's very likely to be going into a home baby. I'm so upset about it. It breaks my heart and I will miss her.
Evening
I seem to just be sitting and staring at the walls. The hours are so slow. This is what I was dreading to be honest. After today though I should mostly be kept busy with treatment and visits and choir practise on Saturdays. I've put the television on now that it has gone dark to keep me company.
Granny apparently has a bladder infection - she's not going into hospital. We're just going to take it day by day for now and I'll have to become more of a full time carer around Lindsey's vists to assist the carers while she is bed bound. We are going to see as/ if she feels better whether or not she can get out of bed again. If not it's then we'll have to reassess her care and think about her maybe going into a home.
I am just waiting for time to pass now until X Factor is on and the night carer has been and Granny is safely asleep. Hardcore Saturday night for me. I hope you had a nice afternoon with your family - the birthday cake they made you looked epic :) .
The past three days with you had been amazing. Your birthday was "Day 23" you know. I was going to post it on the day "23 Subtle Things I Love About You" - but I was busy snuggling and just being with you. So here they are now:
1.The scent of you - particularly on your forehead and neck.
2. The way your nose wiggles when you talk.
3. Your ability to recall where anything is when I "lose" it.
4. Your "cheeky face".
5. Your erratic handwriting and how it changes style mid sentence.
6. How you always wear accessories with every outfit.
7. The tiny birth mark on your lip - it's an "X marks the spot".
8. When you make up or mix up words.
9. The way you make my hot chocolate just right.
10. How you "recharge" things for me to snuggle when we're apart.
11. How you always find things on the floor - 20ps in particular
12. That you have bath that is so hot that you come out bright pink.
13. Your puzzle addiction and the way you sit in your chair while you do them.
14. Amy Quiche moments.
15. When you drive you lazily place your hand on the bottom of the steering wheel.
16. How you will watch Glee even though you hate it because you know I love it.
17. Your dance moves! *shoulder shuffle*
18. When you drink something from a bottle after me - you don't wipe the lipstick ring off your face.
19. When we spoon to sleep and you wrap your leg over the top of mine.
20. Your relentless list writing.
21. How you will not spend money on yourself but nothing is ever too expensive for me.
22. Those bloody blue shoes!
23. The magical places you think up when it's your turn to decide where we're going to meet in our dreams.
These are just the little things - the main list is endless and I'll be forever writing this, the same way I am forever clocking up all the reasons I love you so much in my heart. It grows constantly, just like my love for you.
25 whole days survived baby girl.
Mousey x
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